everyday i wake up at 7 in the afternoon
i go to sleep at 9 in the morning
im wasting my limited days
it is upsetting
because im feeling like everything is so unsatisfactory, pointless and unfulfilling
i feel so incomplete without my honeybear
but she wont talk to me anymore
ive been rejected from everything and everyone
its an empty lost sort of feeling
and its horrifying
im such a disappointment
to myself and everyone that matter to me
and nothing is improving
i wish i knew how to fix it
instead of just sitting here complaining
because i am in full realization that life is not fair
and at times it can be bloody cruel
but what do i do?
thats the million dollar question!
w h a t d o i d o n o w ?
and im just paralyzed in terror because
i. dont. know.
im living in a nightmare


(my mood is not high btw my computers just taking a long time to load so i cannot change it so whatever)